The always candid Billy Corgan has opened up in a recent interview with American TV personality Carson Daly about his past suicidal tendencies and how an understanding of God helped him through his time of need. During the interview with Daly, Corgan talked about confronting a fan at SXSW, the heyday of the Smashing Pumpkins in the 90s, and the impact The Beatles played on not only his own songwriting but all popular rock music.
The conversation then turns to some darker times for Corgan when the celebrated frontman was considering taking his own life. Corgan speaks of the inspiration he found from his brother, who was born with special needs, and how an understanding of God helped him overcome his despair.
“I almost killed myself about three, four, seven times… I literally started planning my death and what I would leave behind, and what I was gonna write. Three or four times in my life,” Corgan told Daly.
“What I finally realised, at least on the back end of this, is that God, at least as I understand God, was there all along. Once I was able to process my reality in that way, I no longer felt like a victim.”
As reported by NME, this is not the fist time Corgan has made public the personal troubles that he has struggled through. Back in November of 2011, Corgan told NME that he had thoughts of suicide while he worked on the Smashing Pumpkins’ classic record 1993’s Siamese Dream.
“I was suicidal, and I’d been plotting my own death for about two months and if you’ve ever read anything about the warning signs of suicide one of them is you give away all your stuff, and I’d given away all my stuff, I gave away all my records, I started giving away my guitars,” Corgan told NME in 2011.
“I was fantasising about my own death, I started thinking what my funeral would be like and what music would be played, I was at that level of insanity,” Corgan confessed.
Watch: Billy Corgan interview on Last Call with Carson Daly