After 10 years of silence, Monica Lewinsky, the former White House intern embroiled in a sex scandal with then US President Bill Clinton, has opened up about her past and in the process has some linguistic advice for Beyoncé.
“It’s time to burn the beret and bury the blue dress,” writes Lewinsky, now 40, in the released excerpts of a story for the forthcoming issue of Vanity Fair. In the story, Lewinsky writes that she is still recognised every day, her name popping up in daily media and pop-culture references. She even hopes to request a correction from pop Queen Bey, regarding the lyrics to her recent hit Partition.
One of the most talked-about lines from Beyoncé’s surprise album came from Partition, when she references Lewinsky and Clinton’s infamous affair singing, Oh he so horny, yeah he want to fuck. He popped all my buttons, and he ripped my blouse. He Monica Lewinsky-ed all on my gown.”
Apparently a stickler for grammar, Lewinsky corrects the singer on what she says is the proper verb in this case. “Thanks, Beyoncé,” said Lewinsky. “But if we’re verbing, I think you meant ‘Bill Clinton’d all on my gown,’ not ‘Monica Lewinsky’d.'”
Of the affair itself, Lewinsky says there is no question her boss, Bill Clinton, “took advantage” of her but maintains their affair was consensual. “Any ‘abuse’ came in the aftermath, when I was made a scapegoat in order to protect his powerful position,” she writes. She accuses Clinton’s inner political circle, the “minions” and “political operatives on both sides of the aisle” for trying to use her as a political pawn.
“I am determined to have a different ending to my story,” she continues. “I’ve decided, finally, to stick my head above the parapet so that I can take back my narrative and give a purpose to my past. (What this will cost me, I will soon find out.)”
Lewinsky says her past still haunts her, with potential job hopes squandered due to the affair. “Because of what potential employers so tactfully referred to as my ‘history,'” she writes, “I was never ‘quite right’ for the position.”
“In some cases, I was right for all the wrong reasons,” she continues, “as in ‘Of course, your job would require you to attend our events.’ And, of course, these would be events at which press would be in attendance.”
Lewinsky also reveals she had strong suicidal temptations during the investigation into her relationship with Clinton and claims she “was also possibly the first person whose global humiliation was driven by the Internet.” By sharing her story, she says she hopes she can help others “in their darkest moments of humiliation”.
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Watch: Beyoncé – Partition (Explicit Video)