Having just cancelled their remaining tour dates across Europe, Closure In Moscow frontman Christopher de Cinque has posted to the band’s Facebook page to explain the decision in an honest and bullshit free message to fans.
“I regret to inform anyone that was planning on coming to any of the upcoming European shows that we’ve decided it’s best not to continue for the sake of both my physical and mental health,” the post reads.
“It’s unfortunately gotten to a point where getting back home and getting well has to take precedence over seeing out the remainder of the dates.”
Going on to explain how his mental state can to influence the decision to cancel the tour, de Cinque also describes why he chose to be honest about it rather than just deploying the age old deflection of ‘unforseen circumstances.’
“For the sake of this not being just another ‘due to unforeseen circumstances’ or ‘for personal reasons’ gloss over post, I think I should divulge that I suffer from a pretty debilitating anxiety disorder, it’s something I’ve struggled with for as long as I can remember.”
“I’ve gotten very adept at hiding it, and I think that’s somewhat something to do with feeling embarrassed, even ashamed of it,” he added.
The decision didn’t happen in a vacuum though, with de Cinque pointing out that “as most of you probably know, some very unfortunate and very heavy shit has gone down during our time here.”
The ‘unfortunate’ and ‘heavy shit’ that has gone down might refer to how in London earlier this year thieves broke into their van and made off with the band’s valuables including instruments, personal belongings, and passports. As well as the fact the band were performing in Paris when last week’s terror attacks unfolded.
“Basically it became a perfect storm of things that got me to a point where I couldn’t employ my normal ‘hide and divert’ tactics and I was isolating myself completely and my physical health deteriorated severely.”
“I had to talk to the other guys about it in a way that I never have before which was really hard. But, of course, being close friends and having my best interests and welfare at heart, they made me see I had nothing to be embarrassed about, nothing to be ashamed of.”
“So I guess the positive I’m trying to impart here is this, if you feel this way and struggle with this shit like me and you feel like you have to tackle it alone, talk to people around you, people that care about you, don’t feel embarrassed or stupid, it just compounds it and it’s fucking horrible.”
“You’ll be so pleasantly surprised at how understanding people are and how much talking it out is taking leaps towards getting a handle on it. There is plenty of support around you both personally and professionally.”
“I’ve tried to deal with this alone for way too long, if you wanna talk to me about it even, I have time for anyone that needs friendly advice or support… Hit me the fuck up! To anyone that was gonna come out to these shows, I’m really sorry… We’ll be back to make it up to you.”
Our thoughts and best wishes are with de Cinque and the band as they start the journey home, while in the meantime you can read the full post below.
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