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Kid Cudi Checks Himself Into Rehab For “Depression & Suicidal Urges”

Written by Emmy Mack on October 5, 2016

Kid Cudi has shared some deeply personal revelations with fans about his private struggles with depression and anxiety.

In a lengthy note posted to Facebook, the hip hop star reveals that he’s just checked himself into a rehab facility to treat “suicidal urges” that he’s been experiencing as a result of longstanding mental health issues.

“I am not at peace,” he tells fans. “I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I would’ve done something to myself.”

While admitting that he feels “ashamed” to reveal the true nature of his struggles because he’s seen as “a leader and a hero to so many”, Cudi goes on to detail a daily battle that anyone who’s ever found themselves wrestling with the Black Dog will find all too familiar:

“I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.”

The rapper has also promised fans that his recently delayed new album Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin’ is still on track for release, but says he’ll be stepping away from the promotion side of things until he’s well again.

“I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery,” he writes, adding that “I’ll be back, stronger, better. Reborn.”

Read his full post, below.

If you or anyone you know is suffering from depression, anxiety or suicidal urges, contact Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636

Kid Cudi Statement (Via Facebook)

Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.

Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.

I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.

I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.

If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.

Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.

I love you,

Scott Mescudi

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